Stalked

My ex-boyfriend is stalking me. He’s telling lies about me and even going so far as to claim that he has parental rights to my child.

I’ve blocked him on social media but he keeps sending emails.  The constant quick tone changes in them is just like he was in fights – calling me a bitch one moment, denying it happened the next, then abruptly changing to a calm tone after reducing me to tears, so that he could pretend to be reasonable and use my emotions against me.

Each time I see an email from him, I panic. My stomach turns and it often makes me literally sick. My heart races and I’m terrified.  I just want to be left alone.

It’s damn near impossible to write after that, to go on with my day like I’m fine and not actually afraid he’s found out where we live now. So after months of consideration and waiting for him to back off, I recognize it’s not going to happen without legal enforcement. 

See my ex isn’t afraid of me. He feels safe contacting me over and over and over again no matter how many times I beg him to stop. He’s bigger and stronger and  can yell louder and he knows it. He will never be afraid of me the way I’m afraid of him.