I take a lot of medicine. I’m on anatacids and anti-nausea medication and anti-anxiety pills as well. And on top of that, sometimes I use medical marijuana. Last night I decided to record the effects and process of smoking a bowl, one hit at a time.
- I start to relax in anticipation. It’s been about a week since I smoked, and I’m starting off with some anxiety and nausea, and pain in my shoulders at an 8 on the pain scale.
- I start to breathe slower. Anxiety makes my heart race and my breathing shallow and rapid. Getting my body back to stasis helps my mind get there too.
- It’s time to start the first of a series of stretches. Cold weather like we’re having right now can cause my muscles to freeze up, so stretching is more important yet harder to do.
- As I stretch, I can feel the pain in my shoulders more, but I can also feel blood flowing where it needs to.
- I’m beginning to feel calm. At this point, I take a ten minute break to sit comfortably while I determine if I need more.
- The knots in my shoulders begin to loosen. Nausea disappears. Pain level is down to a 7.
- My heart rate is closer to normal. The muscles I didn’t realize I was clenching in my face begin to relax.
- It’s starting to become easier to stretch.
- I feel a sense of calm. When a neighbor’s dog barks, it doesn’t produce a startle response in me.
- I’m starting to yawn now. My racing thoughts are slowing down. Time for another break.
- My mood is pleasant, but my pain level is still at a 6. My neck is still too stiff to turn it all the way in either direction.
- My automatic breathing is deeper and slower. I get a satisfying vertabrae pop while stretching.
- I laughed at a joke on TV, instead of just thinking “That’s funny” inside my head. Spontaneous laughs and smiles are more common for me when I feel good.
- I can turn my neck all the way, but it hurts to do so.
- Pain at 5. Still unpleasant, and neck still feels very stiff. The bowl is empty.
Marijuana isn’t a magic cure, and sometimes it takes more than one bowl to bring pain levels down to acceptable levels. Sometimes one is enough. The particular strain I was using last night, Great White Shark, made me incredibly sleepy. I went to bed at 8 pm, despite the pain, and slept solidly until 6 o’clock this morning. I call that a win.